i suppose i’ll make one last post here and see if any person is looking because i genuinely don’t care if anyone sees my reasoning for deleting

i know i could have unfollowed a bunch of people but i’m really fucking miserable about every aspect of my life right now
im really tired of seeing shit i don’t want to see that’s going to make that worse.
too much time goes into here and between this and relapsing back into wanting to jump off my balcony, i don’t really feel like doing anything else and i REALLY need to get out and do something before i actually follow through with my wishes 
and i suppose it lets me see who my actual friends are. i talk to far too many people through tumblr but they don’t give a fuck when it comes to texting/facebook even after i’ve made the effort to talk to them. i’m getting ignored through all means of communication but one so i’m gonna take away that single method to talk to me that they’ve (barely) kept